Direction

I read this post on 37 days. And it made me think about what I really really want (for myself, my life) right now.

Patti's challenge: "Tell someone what you want today. Be specific." She asks: "what three things do you most need and want right now?"

While reading responses from others, two words gripped me, causing a flutter somewhere deep in my chest: "Creative Fulfillment."

I. Want. That.

I don't know what it would look like, so I hesitate to ask for a specific job or opportunity. I just know it is what my soul wants, why it sent me a signal to wake up and notice.

I also want enough space and quiet to hear my own voice. When Dude and I go to the coffee shop or library to study, my mind clears, ideas and coherent thoughts visit me. I feel little pricks on my skin, signals about which direction to move in. I am tired of trying to complete assignments with a toddler hanging on one arm and cartoons in the background, and I don't want to have to stay up until 2AM in order to get my work done. Why can't I get the necessary amount of sleep, a good workout, good food, time for myself and time for family all in one day?

I know (from experience) that I am not willing to sacrifice my family for any job, creative outlet, etc. I want to observe my kids, to appreciate their simplicity, to cook together, play together. I want time with my husband...to be alone, to laugh.

So I am sending this out to the universe, hoping she will send me in a direction:

My three things (not in any order -- I want them all...at the same time):

1- Creative Fulfillment
2- space just for me
3- plenty of quality time with my family

Do you think it is too much to hope for? What are your three things?

Read Patti's essay. It will inspire you too.

--Sadge